[SING!!]


Tears roll down his face,
why have they all gone to a unseen place,
never again will the familys feel the same,
they are not forgotten,
have not died in vain,
the fact they no longer walk is a shame.....

I remember the days,
and how the rolls played,
they play in my head,
and i remember that your dead,
i recall things that you said,
and that one tear you shed,

the memorys always remain,
but im not ready for change,
dad it seems so strange,
when i need someone to speak with,
and i speak to myself,
and at your grave i have nelt,

in a week it will be a year,
if only you were still here,
but now its just another tear,
more things unsaid,
another post about you unread,

by the one eyes that i want to see,
is it okay for a man to grieve?,
will anyone remember me?,
thoughts and questions remain,
i dont know if i am sain,
there is so much pain,

ive thought of suicide,
but life is a weird ride,
today im sad,tommorrow happy,
sometimes mad,and right now sappy,

god still walks with me,this i know,
life is what it will be,emotions grow,
witch is when i write,and just express myself,
life can really bite,and i care to much of wealth,

people judge me offten,but i do not care,
cus i remember back then,and now beside me is bare,
a father dead,and a brother gone,
scriptures read,and thoughts of beyond,

friends who help,but that could never replace,
stuggle with ones self,and memorys of a happy face,
my own face,a happier time,and happier place,
steps taken wrong,weed in a bong,things i watned all along,

things i should have said,but they never got spoke,
wish together we had read,and along the way could have took notes,
should have asked more questions,and told you i cared,
wondering dus god make exeptions?,cus i am scared,

flames continue to build,and i see a younger me,
i was onec skilled,thoughts of what i should be,
a face in the mirror that i dont know,it stares back,
pain i hold inside and dont show,honesty i lack,

scars to remind of hard ship,and friends lost,
family laughs and car trips,i would pay any cost,
just to have one more year,would even leave with you,
would cut off my own ear,i know this is true,

i will always wish we could have had more time,
but if anyone ask then yes im fine,this pain is mine,
so it i will never share,cus honestly who would care,
if i cried everyone would stare,if only you were here,

or i was there.........

walking with a life long depression,
looking into a grave and seeing my reflextion!